Stretching and expanding!

I’ve been struggling and fighting myself.

It hurts!

I’m scared!

It feel like I can’t fit!

I don’t know if can get out!

Feeling like I am constantly growing and changing as I become more aware.

But I am still fighting myself!

I don’t want to feel all the feelings. I don’t want to let them in.

I watch myself and watch my reactions to things I am.

Sometimes my growth was kind of cute.
Right now I feel like I am being constantly hit in the face.

I’m wobbling, stumbling. I feel out of control.

… I need to be.

I need to accept there is not the kind of control my ego seeks.
It is all an illusion.

To be the friend, the lover, the leader and the creator I truly desire to be I have to stretch, gown, stumble and submit to the universe!
Accept the seemingly out of control nature of my existence.

And keep choosing to take the next obvious action.